sonya ina

I'll admit it, I was borderline spoiled as a child. I was showered with all the latest toys, electronics, lavish vacations, and other odds and ends. My parents paid my bills, bought me a new car, and paid for my college education. Nonetheless, I was never a spoiled brat. I'm beyond thankful for all the things my parents have given me. They are amazing people, and above all, amazing parents. I hope to, one day, be able to give Ben and my children what my parents were able to give me, while maintaining the integrity I was able to maintain.

In some ways, I still feel like the child I was years ago, but on the other hand, I've changed so much. I feel as though I've been on an arduous journey. I guess we all are. However, through the years, I've come to understand what it's like, and what it's going to be like, relying on myself for money. Now that Ben and I will be homeowners shortly, I feel as though there is this cloud hoovering over our heads, and it's either just about to crack and let in the sun, or cower ominously seeping giant beads of rain.

I'm scared. I won't deny it. A lot of money is going into this soon to be townhouse of ours. A lot of hard earned money. Money that I earned. It's not my parents money, it's mine. Wow, how things change.

Nevertheless, I'm glad it's all happening. I've never wanted to rent, I've always wanted to own. Now my dream is going to come true, and I get to share it with the love of my life.